Saturday, May 14, 2016

Turning the Page

As we near the end of another school year, it's always good to reflect on the past year and God's faithfulness to me and my students.  In many ways, it's been a year like no other.  I've been challenged both personally and as a teacher.  I hope that I've challenged my students to seek the Lord and to live a life pleasing to Him.

As I write this, I'm listening to this song....what an encouragement:

A mighty fortress is our God
A sacred refuge is Your name
Your kingdom is unshakable
With You forever we will reign

We will keep our eyes on You
So we can set our hearts on You
Lord, we will set our hearts on You

Now some random thoughts....

- I've seen God work in great ways this year.  He has done some awesome things in the lives of many of my students.  He has met needs, encouraged, and provided more than I could have asked or imagined.  He has continued to change me as well.  This has been a big year for me personally, where both Megan and Kelsey will be married, Daniel will be a high school senior, and Matt will start high school soon and be driving.  And don't forget about Felicia's book launch.  Wow!!!  That's a lot of change in a short amount of time.  But God is still faithful in all things.

- I think this year has exposed more of my own areas for improvement as a teacher than ever before.  In some ways, I need to improve in how I teach.  But that's normal if I'm going to be the educator God has called me to be.  As an organized person, I often get caught up in the details too much.  I need to use the platform God has given me to teach the content in a way that comes alive to my students.  This will be a major part of my praying and planning this summer.

- I need to continue to pray that God will help me to see the true ministry of what I do at school.  I know that students struggle during the middle school years more than any other.  This is the time when they form their identity and often struggle the most with discovering who they are, what they believe, and where they place their value.  I need to be ready to speak God's Word in those moments.  I need to be available to be used by God to point these students to Christ.  The research proves it - these students will develop their core beliefs about God and life right now.  My prayer is that God will give me eyes to see how to invest in my students for the kingdom in greater ways going forward.

- I know I've made so many mistakes this year.  I gave a harsh word when a more gentle one would do.  I missed many times when a student said or did something that was a cry for encouragement.  I missed several opportunities to pray with my students at the moment they expressed a need.  I allowed the stress and worry in my own life to affect my attitude towards my students at times.  I used sarcasm too much at times.  And many more.  God has a way to remind me of this and use it to make me more sensitive to the opportunities He brings.  I hope to continue to grow in this.

- Our 8th grade Bible teacher, Kelvin Johns, is fighting pancreatic cancer.  As I pray for him and his family, I'm also reminded of the same fight my mom fought with this disease.  I pray that God will show the same grace to Kelvin as He did my mom.  I also remember the words that Kelvin shared with me personally right after his diagnosis.  His words were spot on, and I'm certain God gave them to him to share with me.  I pray I can live up to them.

- Any success I've had this school year is ONLY by God's grace.  He did it all, and He chose to use me in it.  I pray my spirit is growing daily in surrender to His plans and to be used for His glory.  I am so thankful that God continues to use me in spite of my weaknesses and failures.  I want Him to keep breaking me of my dependence in myself, only to build me back up in Him.

- I pray my students see me as a work in progress in Christ.  One of the great things about teaching is that my students get to see me struggle over an entire school year.  They might see a few days when I am more faithful to God, but they also see a lot of days where I struggle.  That's the work of the Spirit in the life of a believer.  When you get to spend so much time around someone, you see it all.  I pray they remember the journey, not a specific day.

- One more word to my students.  I challenge you to be different.  Be different in spiritual things, willing to follow Christ and His Word, no matter what.  Be different than other students, willing to take ownership of your education, not waiting to be served, but embracing the opportunity you've been given to learn and apply what you've learned.  Be different in leaving behind a sense of entitlement, remembering that God gives us all good gifts to enjoy, but with Him on the throne of your life.  Be different in living everyday as an act of worship to the God who loves you and has given you life forevermore with Him.

As this is my 10th year teaching at NRCA, I've often thought back to my first few years.  Man, I'm so glad I'm not the teacher I was then!  God continues to prepare me for each year.  He knows exactly what to do and how to get me ready.  I'm confident He will do that again this summer.  My prayer is that I will continue to humble myself to Him and His work in me.

I praise God for all He has done.  He is great and greatly to be praised!  Amen!

Mr. B.

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Ministry Begins in the Home

This blog post is written to my family:  Felicia, Megan, Kelsey, Daniel & Matt.........

As I sat in the worship service today, the music took my breath away as we sang frequently about the sacrifice of Jesus Christ for us.  The message was awesome, as usual, speaking about the biblical principles of dating.  It reminded me of the many conversation Felicia and I have had with our children on this subject (and still have!).  Then, at the end of the service, we observed the Lord's Supper.  I did what I always do just before that begins - I pray for God to search my heart and reveal sin in me, so that I can confess it to Him before taking the Lord's table.  As I prayed, I believe God revealed something that I've needed to see for about 2 years.

I always felt blessed to be called to Christian ministry.  The call started with bi-vocational church ministry, where I was able to serve in various roles in several awesome churches.  It continued 9 years ago when I was blessed to become part of the faculty at NRCA.  God has always provided and worked through these ministries in ways I could not imagine.  Over and over again, He always did a great work in me, our family, and the ministry work.  In addition, even when I was serving in both ministries at the same time, He made it work in our family, providing grace for all situations each day and giving us more grace even when we didn't deserve it.  He protected us that way, and at the same time, covered up those times when my time was divided between the work of ministry and my family.

But a little over 2 years ago, the church ministry stopped, at least for now.  I think our entire family breathed a little for the first time in many years, thinking we were gaining a time of rest and renewal from the grind of ministry life.  We did get much of that and so much more from day one at The Summit Church.  I will always be thankful to God for bringing us to Summit.  There is not enough space here to list all the great things God has done for us and in us here.  I am so thankful for being a part of this church.

When we left the last church ministry role, I was given a great opportunity to return to the primary ministry role He has called me to - my family.  All of the time and energy I had poured into the church role could now be used to build up and minister to my family.  Boy, we really needed it, too.  While we enjoyed the ministry work and made many friends, it was very difficult at times.  And it has left some scars on us that God is continuing to heal.  Now was the time for me to be the pastor of my most important ministry - Felicia, Megan, Kelsey, Daniel, and Matt.

But what I believe God revealed to me this morning is this.  I have done some of what God called me to do that day a little over 2 years ago, but I have not completely been obedient to what He desired for me to do.  It's been too easy to channel that extra time and energy to other things, mostly school responsibilities and other personal things that I wanted to do.  I've not been non-existent in family ministry, but I've not been all God has called me and made me to be.

I think that being the pastor of my home will always be the hardest ministry that God has given me.  Maybe it's too easy to focus more at school or in other places and things.  We are often drawn towards things that take us away from doing hard things.  I know God has also called me to do other things that I have been negligent in - reading more, taking care of myself, looking for ways to serve others, etc.  God reminded me today that He saved me so I can serve Him by serving others.  And being faithful to what He has called me to do.  I also realize this means I'll have to say "no" to a lot of good things and opportunities to ensure I can do the most important things.

So, Felicia, Megan, Kelsey, Daniel, and Matt - I'm sorry for not being all that God has called me to be over the last few years.  I've been there and have been a part of some of His work in your lives, but He wanted me to do more.  My renewed commitment is to continue to improve and make the role of being the pastor of my home the highest priority.  Thank you for being patient with me, even in those times when I disappointed you.

Felicia, I want to continue to become the husband you need me to be.  To love you as Christ loved the church, and to help you become the woman of faith He wants you to be.  I love you.

Megan & Kelsey, I know you're not in our home any more, but I desire to still invest in what God is doing in your lives as well.  I hope you will continue to pray for me and allow me to be a valuable part of your lives.  I pray for you both every day.  I love you both.

Daniel & Matt, I'm blessed that you are still at home.  But the time is running short, and I desire to make the time the best it can be as God leads us.  You are growing into men of faith, and I want to help you to grow into something great for the glory of God.  I love you both.

Pray for me.  I need God's strength to help me obey His call on me.  I want Him to make me the best pastor of my home.

Pastor Randy

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Forever

Great song......incredible lyrics.  Especially as we've just celebrated Good Friday and Resurrection Sunday.  Sharing them with you.....for His glory.


Forever

The moon and stars they wept
The morning sun was dead
The Savior of the world was broken
His body on the cross
His blood poured out for us
The weight of every curse upon Him

One final breath He gave
As heaven looked away
The Son of God was laid in darkness
A battle in the grave
The war on death was waged
The power of hell forever broken

The ground began to shake
The stone was rolled away
His perfect love could not be overcome
Now death where is your sting
Our resurrected King has rendered you defeated

Chorus
Now forever He is glorified
Forever He is lifted high
And forever He is risen
He is alive and He is alive

We sing hallelujah we sing hallelujah
We sing hallelujah the Lamb has overcome
We sing hallelujah we sing hallelujah
We sing hallelujah

And now death where is your sting
Our resurrected King has overcome
He's overcome

Brian Johnson | Christa Black Gifford | Gabriel Wilson | Jenn Johnson | Joel Taylor | Kari Jobe
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Worship Together Music (Admin. by Capitol CMG Publishing) Bethel Music Publishing

Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Best Supporting Actors Tell the Easter Story

I decided this year to focus the classroom devotions during passion week on something a little different.  I had already been thinking and praying about this, but the idea was completely confirmed after hearing the message at The Summit Church this past weekend.  My students attend a Christian school, so they are pretty familiar with the main Easter story - Jesus Christ giving His life for us all, being arrested, put on trial, crucified, buried, and rising again on the third day.

But what about some of the lesser known characters in the Easter story?  I chose a few of these characters to talk about, using the Luke 23 passage.  It gave me an opportunity to look at some examples of symbolism that I believe helps put the message of Easter in perspective.  I have been careful not to try to add anything to the text - just simply giving the students something to think about.

Simon the Cyrenian (Lk. 23:26)

Simon is the guy who is coming in from the country for Passover.  He arrives and is watching the events unfold in Jerusalem.  Jesus has been arrested and put on trial, leading to the decision to have Him crucified.  He is beaten and bloody, mocked and spit upon, and forced to carry His own cross to Golgotha.  He buckles under the weight of the cross, and a guard tells Simon to pick up the cross and carry it for Jesus.  The text says "and on him (Simon) they laid the cross that he might bear it after Jesus."  Probably not the day Simon had in mind.

Think about these ideas based on Simon's experience:

- He was just coming into Jerusalem for Passover - not to get involved in these events.
- I'm not sure if he even knew who Jesus was - but by the time this was over, he sure would.
- What if I had been in Simon's place?  Man, that still blows my mind to think about.  What if it were me that had to carry Jesus' cross?
- Isn't this what God calls me to do....daily?  Take up my cross and follow Him.
- Simon picks up the cross which had to have Jesus' blood on it, thus making Simon unclean.  How does Simon reconcile that with his knowledge of Jewish law and the coming Passover?
- I wonder if Simon thought about this - he's carrying the cross that Jesus would be crucified on, and Jesus is being crucified because of Simon's sin (and yours and mine, too).  Jesus came to die the death we deserved and give us the life we didn't deserve.
- I wonder what Simon did next?

Joseph of Arimathea (Lk. 23:50-53)

Joseph is a council member (Sanhedrin) who was a just man.  Scripture says he didn't agree with the decision to crucify Jesus.  It seems to indicate that Joseph was a believer.  But he was also in a position of power and influence.  He goes to Pilate and asks for Jesus' body to bury Him.  This was probably a risky move for Joseph - trying to honor Jesus as the Christ while maintaining his positional authority on the council.

Joseph takes the body of Jesus down from the cross, wraps Him in a linen shroud, and laid Him in a tomb carved out of the rock.  The line shroud and tomb seem to be indications of Joseph's wealth and means.  It also may indicate that perhaps Joseph had purchased these items for himself, but chose to use them for Jesus.

Think about these ideas based on Joseph's experience:

- Joseph gave his best offering for Jesus - the linen shroud and tomb.  These items were fit for those in high positions, maybe even a king.
- Joseph was willing to step out in faith regardless of the consequences.
- Joseph's willingness to go to Pilate to get Jesus' body ensured that nothing else would be done with the body - either leaving the body on the cross or seeing it discarded some other way.
- God used Joseph's actions with the linen shroud and tomb as part of His plan for the resurrection.
- Think about this idea - Joseph gave up the linen shroud and tomb he purchased for his death and gave them to the One who gave His life for Joseph.  Jesus died the death Joseph (and we) deserve so that we would not have to.  He did this to give Joseph (and us) the life we don't deserve and can't earn.

The Disciples (Lk. 24:13-53)

This event occurs after the resurrection.  It starts with Jesus appearing to two disciples on the road to Emmaus.  These guys don't know what to think about all that's happened.  Jesus talks with them and shares from the Scriptures, starting from the OT and the prophets, and shares the Gospel with them.  Later on, Jesus also appears to His disciples, proving to them that He had in fact risen from the dead.  He also affirms that it was necessary for things to happen this way, so that repentance and forgiveness of sins could be real.

The disciples were a stubborn bunch, weren't they?  But the Scriptures also say that their eyes and understanding were not yet opened to all this truth.  But as Jesus opened their eyes and understanding, it led to a great worship experience that would help to move these disciples to be faithful witnesses of Him.

Think about these ideas based on the disciples' experience:

- I love how the Bible says the two men's hearts burned within them when Jesus talked to them.  Man, that's what I want.  I want God's Word and His Spirit to speak to me, and for my heart to burn when He speaks.
- Jesus made many appearances to His disciples before ascending to heaven.  In doing so, He confirmed before many witnesses that He is alive.
- I pray that when Jesus speaks to me I am listening.  But more than that, I desire to know He is speaking to me, affirming His Word and His direction for every area of my life.
- I pray that I will not tempt God by asking to see proof of His direction for me.  I believe He lives.  It's time to get busy in obedience.  When He speaks, I move.
- May the end of this text be my life - when Jesus ascended to heaven, the disciples worshiped Him, and returned to Jerusalem with great joy and were continually praising God.

As we approach Good Friday and Resurrection Day on Sunday, these characters give me even more opportunities to reflect on God's goodness to me.  Jesus Christ came to give us eternal life, by giving His life for ours.  He died on the cross to pay the debt of my sin.  He was raised from the dead, and He lives today.  Because He lives, I have life now beyond anything I can imagine, and I have life eternally with Him.

Not bad for a group of best supporting actors in this awesome story.  That's a lot to digest.  Which is why I'm glad I have a life time to read God's Word and meditate on it.  For His glory.

Mr. B.

Tuesday, February 24, 2015

Snow Thoughts

Just some thoughts & ideas on this snow day.......

I wonder why people in the south are wound so tight about bread and milk just before the snow falls.  Why not make sure you've got bacon?  Or snack foods?  Strange....

I wonder why students are never totally happy when they get a snow day off from school.  They either are mad that the school didn't make the call earlier....or that the school made the call too early in the morning and not the night before...or that they have to make up the day later on.  Guess it has to do with the idea that life is all about them.  Well, it's not.

I wonder why is snow white?  I'm sure there's a good scientific reason.  Well, here you go:  http://www.foxnews.com/science/2013/12/09/ask-science-teacher-why-is-snow-white-and-where-does-its-color-go-when-snow/

I wonder how much people laugh at us in the south when we shut everything down after the first snow flake falls, when other areas of the country get so much more snow and yet can still function well.

I wonder what is the best way to make snow cream?  I haven't had any since last year.  Add enough chocolate syrup and everything tastes a little better.

I wonder why people in the south can't take a driving class to learn how to drive in snow?  That would help us all be smarter on the roads when we do drive in bad weather.  Maybe make it a part of driver's ed or a requirement to get your driver's license.

I wonder why I'm not sleeping right now......

Mr. B.

Thursday, January 1, 2015

2015 Roadmap

Each year I create a set of goals for the new year.  I call this a roadmap, not resolutions.  I don't like resolutions, mainly because I can never keep them.  I prefer a roadmap, much like I used when I was a worship pastor in the local church.

A roadmap is something that I create under the leadership of the Spirit and the Word.  It's a set of goals and objectives based on how I believe God is leading me.  Since He leads me in this, that means the goals are not completely different from year to year.  Usually they just get refined and get more and more specific.  This roadmap is something that God can change and refine in me throughout the year, as He leads.  That's what makes this different than your typical resolutions.  If I don't keep a resolution, I just shrug my shoulders and say maybe next year.  If I don't hit a goal in the roadmap, I get convicted by the Spirit and must make the changes necessary to get back on track.

I will confess that while I reorganized my roadmap a lot this year, the content didn't really change very much.  Along with that process came enormous conviction that I didn't do so well with my goals in 2014.  I got caught up in the busyness of life last year and only realized what had happened the few times I went back to the roadmap during the year.  My commitment is to do regular checkpoints in 2015.  But I'm trusting God to do this work in me.  I've shown that I can't do it on my own.

My roadmap has a lot of detail in it, which I believe is required in order to ensure success.  Details and measurements are critical.  I won't share all those details in this blog post.  But I will share the high level goals I have from the Lord for 2015.

I encourage you to consider doing the same as we start the new year.  Spend time in prayer along with the Scriptures.  Seek God on the things He desires.  Then strap in for a great 2015 as He leads.

2015 Roadmap

1.  Love God through daily spiritual growth to be a reflection of Christ & a faithful witness of Him.

2.  Shepherd my family as my primary ministry priority.

3.  Fulfill God's call of ministry on me as a husband, father, minister, teacher, leader, & servant.

4.  Love others by investing in relationships that display the Gospel to them.

In addition, I really like a recent post by Alvin Reid (alvinreid.com) that speaks to some great goals for the new year.  Here are a few of his thoughts, which I will also look to adopt in 2015 and in the future:

1.  Focus daily on your calling.

2.  Value margin.

3.  Learn to say "NO".

4.  Learn to delegate.

5.  Value spiritual disciplines & Sabbaths, including personal retreats.

6.  Exercise and eat well.

7.  Focus on individuals more than crowds.

I'm praying you'll be successful in 2015 by focusing on God's roadmap for you.

Mr. B.


Saturday, December 20, 2014

Being a Math Teacher: Retail's Greatest Nightmare

Yes, you know I'm a math teacher.  Specifically I teach Algebra I.  I tell my students often that most everything boils down to equations.  Christmas shopping is no different.

I'm also the world's greatest procrastinator when it comes to Christmas shopping.  My kids think I do this because I enjoy it.  Actually, it's hard for me to get serious about shopping until after the semester is done at school.  I assure you - I don't like shopping, and I certainly don't like shopping when all the other procrastinators are in the stores.

I've been especially frustrated lately because of a trend I see in stores more than ever before.  Unfortunately this has started taking place more at one particular store, which is the place I do most of my clothes shopping at throughout the year.  These stores are promoting sales where you can buy 1 item at regular price and get 2 or 3 of a comparably priced item for free.  I'm sure many people hear this and think it's a great deal.  However this isn't really the case.  Let me show you why.

Let's say I go to my favorite clothing store, only needing one pair of pants.  I don't need 2, 3 or 4 pairs, only one.  But their sale is buy one, get 2 free.  This actually happened to me back in August when I was shopping for school clothes.  Now usually this store offers a discount on pants, maybe 20% or so, during the year.  But with the current offer, you have to pay regular price for one pair of pants.  This could easily run about $60.

So, if I buy 1, get 2 free, I end up paying about $20 per pair.  If I needed 3 pair, this is a pretty good deal.  But I don't need 3 pair.  So the store is making me spend $60 to get more pants than I need.  And they know I'm not about to just buy one pair for $60 and leave the 2 free pairs behind.

If you think about this spiritually, I believe this sale is a temptation to me in terms of stewardship.  God has called me to be a good manager of His resources in all things.  Back in August, when the sale at the clothing store was buy 2, get 3 free, I did buy the pants that time, even though I didn't need 5 pairs of pants.  I just realized that I still have 2 pairs of pants from that purchase that are still in the original bag.  I'll be taking these back to the store next week to hopefully exchange them for something else I need more right now.  I want to manage my resources as an act of worship to God.  That means I need to be a wise shopper and think and pray well over these matters.

Ok, I guess I can climb off my soapbox for now.  But I guess, as a math teacher and a believer who wants to give God control of everything in my life, I am retail's greatest nightmare.  Although they will probably make enough money this Christmas that they aren't really worried much about me.

Mr. B.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

The Hard Part of Teaching

I've seen a number of teachers post a link to this article online about the hard part of teaching.  I reference it here just so everyone knows what I'm talking about:

The Hard Part of Teaching

In the article, the writer goes into a lot of detail about their view of the hard part of teaching:  there is never enough.  I'll let you read the article for yourself rather than have me give the details.

As a teacher myself, I can't disagree with much of what was written in the article.  I, too, struggle with a lot of the same types of issues.  For me, I can definitely relate to the concerns that are more personal in nature - picking my battles, being flexible, always wanting to improve each year, etc.  I have worked in a number of professions in all my years in the workforce, and I definitely believe that teaching has been the most challenging and most rewarding at the same time.  I've put in more hours a week as a teacher than I have in any other job I've ever had.

But what the article lacks is one important thing - a positive reflection on the calling of a teacher.  The article is very negative overall.  It doesn't matter if it represents a lot of truth about teaching and its challenges.  What does matter is that a teacher who is called to the profession must have an anchor in what this role is really all about - preparing students to make a positive impact in the world.  If that anchor is in place, you will be able to rise above the challenges that try to get in the way.  They will not conquer you or completely derail your efforts in the classroom.

Now, I do realize the challenges are very real.  I see myself in much of what is discussed in the article.  There are days when I wonder how it will all get done - and done in the right way.  But this article looks to me like something I've done myself in other ways.  Sometimes when I get frustrated, when the work just piles up, or when I don't feel appreciated, I want others to know.  Maybe if they can appreciate what I'm going through, then either something will change or at least I'll feel better now that they know.  Any good feeling I gain from this type of thing is very short in duration.  Then I'm faced with the same situations, and I must continue to seek the right solutions.

As a teacher in a Christian school, I believe this sense of calling also has spiritual value.  I assure you that if I didn't know I had a calling from God to this school ministry, I'd be doing something else.  But God sees things differently than I do, and certainly differently than the world does.  In my case, I have a spiritual calling from God to be a teacher in a Christian school.  That gives me access to His strength to persevere through the types of issues in this article.  There are still challenges, but He gives me victory every time in what matters to Him.

I realize not every teacher has the awesome privilege of working in a Christian school.  So to all teachers, I say to remember why you became a teacher in the first place.  If, like the author of the article, all you can see are the problems you face and the struggles that get in the way, then it might be time to consider where you really want to be and what makes you happy.  But I can tell you from experience - the grass is not always greener in some other field.  But for the ones who can see past the difficulties and challenges, and remember why you do what you do, the opportunities to impact the lives of many students awaits you.

Mr. B.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

My Plan or God's Plan

I have often asked myself why things are the way they are.  I trusted Christ as my Lord and Savior at the age of 9.  I've certainly made a lot of mistakes along my spiritual journey, but I can look back at my life and see a growing relationship with Him.  While I have a lot to learn, I see God doing a great work in me, making me more like Christ everyday.

I also know the Bible never promises an easy life for a Christian.  No where in Scripture do I read that as a believer it's smooth sailing from now through eternity.  The Bible certainly promises us that God will provide for us, exactly what we need that's also consistent with His will for our lives.  I mean, He owns the cattle on a 1,000 hills - it's all His anyway, and He desires to bless us in ways that keep us growing in Him.

But I must tell you, it's one thing to know these truths and another thing to truly believe them.  Anyone can know information, but belief is what translates that knowledge to wisdom and trust.  I've got to tell you that today, I'm really struggling with some of this.  Not because I don't believe in God.  Not because I doubt that Scripture is true and without error.  But because living it is hard.  Some days, like today, really hard.

When I get to this place, I remember several important things.  God doesn't want to leave me where I am today.  What I'm experiencing today is just another part of the spiritual journey He's got me on.  That usually means the journey gets a little more difficult sometimes.  God is faithful to His Word, only allowing what we can stand and always giving us the way of escape (1 Cor. 10:13).

I often remember the story in Mark 9:14-29, when Jesus & His disciples are approached by a man who has a son with a mute spirit in him.  This is a pretty difficult situation, which the father describes in great detail.  The man asked the disciples to heal his son, but they can't do it.  As He usually does, Jesus uses this as a teachable moment for them (and me).  He calls them out for their lack of faith, then gets more info from the man about his son.

Don't miss this next part.  The father describes in even more detail how difficult the situation is with his son.  It's a desperate situation, one that has no answers.  But the man says something very important: "But if You can do anything, have compassion on us and help us" (v. 22).  This says to me that even in his desperate state, the man believes that Jesus can do something to help.  Jesus then makes the most important statement on this: "If you can believe, all things are possible to him who believes" (v. 23).  Then the man makes a statement that so often summarizes perfectly where I am in times like this:  "Lord, I believe: help my unbelief" (v. 24).  Also notice he "cried out with tears".  He came to the end of himself and cried out to Jesus for help.

I think the man is saying, I believe in You, Jesus.  I know You can heal and provide for my son.  But my belief is blurred by the situation, my desperation, the enemy telling me I can't do it, that the cause is hopeless, what I desire can't be done, and there's no hope.  The text also tells me that the man tried everything he knew to do, and none of these things brought the healing his son needed.  Only when he came to this point and surrendered to Jesus did everything fall into place.  In fact, after this, Jesus healed his son.

I've told my students this before - you can know everything about God and the Bible, but unless it translates to faith, trust and belief, it will not mean anything.  Can we really trust God to do what He says?  Is there anything in our lives that is too difficult for Him?  Can we believe He knows what's best for us, especially when it's not what we want or prefer?  If God took away everything from me, would He still be enough?

I know the answers to these questions.  The knowledge is in my head, based on a lot of years living as a Christian, going to church, listening to sermons & teaching, and reading the Bible.  There are just some days, like today, when that knowledge is put to the test and is being moved from my head to my heart.  It is being solidified into belief.  So today, as the man in the story did, I cry out to God:  "Lord, I believe: help my unbelief."

Mr. B.

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Jesus In My Place

Great song.  Great message.  From Summit Worship:  Jesus In My Place.

On my worst of days, what can wash away my sin?
When I fall again and I hear “condemned,” on this I’ll stand
Living the life I could not live, Dying the death that I deserved

Jesus in my place, Jesus in my place
This is hope, this is grace, Jesus in my place

On my best of days, what can wash away my pride?
When my greatest deeds fail to make me clean, in this I’ll trust

On that final day, when I stand and face my God
Bold and confident, I will say Lord this is all I have

Living the life I could not live, Dying the death that I deserved
Bearing my sin to pay the price, Rising again to give me life!

Jesus in my place, Jesus in my place
This is hope, this is grace, Jesus in my place
Mercy on display, powerful to save
This is life, this is faith, Jesus in my place


Written by Matt Papa and Jonathan Welch
© 2011 Love Your Enemies Publishing (ASCAP); Doorkeeper Publishing (ASCAP)

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Resolutions

I try not to make New Year's resolutions.  I like most of the people in the world have trouble keeping them past the first month, if that long.  I saw a web post this morning that gave me this idea.  What about some general resolutions or just things to consider doing in 2014.  Some of these are meant more for fun than anything, although I will try at least a few of them myself.  I've borrowed a few from the web post mentioned earlier.  Enjoy.

Some New Year's Resolutions to Consider

1.  Read a Proverb a day.  I recommend reading more of God's Word than just one Proverb a day.  But the Proverbs are so powerful.

2.  Read the Bible everyday.  Follow up to #1.  Even if it's only 15 minutes, just do it.  Be consistent.

3.  Savor your food.  Slow down and enjoy what God has given you to eat.  Will probably help you eat a little better and not overeat.

4.  Go on more walks.  For me, that would be actually start walking again.  Great way to be alone with God, listen to good music or an audio book, or spend time with family.

5.  Make time for close friends.  I struggle with this, being so busy and using this to justify not spending time with friends.  Commit to making this a priority.

6.  Encourage at least five people everyday.  With social media, this should be easier than ever.  But don't be afraid to still talk to someone personally.

7.  Use social media & apps as a worship offering to God.  I use Facebook & Twitter to pray for people with special needs.  I use Evernote to keep a prayer journal.  Think of social media & apps as a way to glorify God, not just comment on pages & post pictures.

8.  Read one book a month.  This is definitely one I want to try to improve on.  I think the key is to read a little every day.  Don't try to consume books in large chunks, which is harder to sustain.

9.  Recruit a mentor.  Look for someone who loves God who will pray for you and invest in your life.

10.  Invest in someone.  Look for someone you can mentor.

11.  Set a limit on technology time each day.  Oh man, this one can be hard.  Make time for more important things for yourself and your family.

12.  Don't put anything on the Internet or an app you don't want everyone to be able to see.  Don't buy the lie that only your friends can see it.  Using a false name or account doesn't work either.  Ask yourself if what you're posting will glorify God.

13.  Look for one opportunity each week to be a blessing to someone.  Be creative.  Make it something quick and easy.  Do something in a way where the person doesn't know it's from you.  For God's glory.

Ok, now some fun ones.

1.  Find new ways to incorporate bacon in meals.  Bacon - enough said.

2.  Toilet paper your own yard one night and blame the teenagers next door.

3.  Next time you get on a crowded elevator, start talking to yourself like Heath Ledger as the Joker in the Dark Knight.  See what happens.

4.  Saw this on a comedy show on TV recently.  Next time you stay at a hotel, on your last day there, take a hot shower.  Use your finger to draw on the mirror something like, "I'm watching you, Victor.".  Once the mirror clears, the writing will not be visible.  But when the next guest takes a shower, the writing will show on the mirror again.  Now, the next guest's name might not be Victor, but if it is......well, you get the idea.

5.  Pretend every day is like the movie Groundhog Day.  If today were the day that would be repeated over and over again, how would you spend it?  What legacy for Christ would you leave in it?

Happy New Year!  Make it a great one for our great God!

Pastor Randy

Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Mom & Dad

As we near Thanksgiving 2013, we also recently arrived at a notable date in history.  November 22 was the anniversary of the assassination of President John F. Kennedy in Dallas, TX.  This year marks the 50th anniversary of that event in our nation's history.  In addition, November 22, 1963 is the day that C.S. Lewis died.  But November 22, 1963 is also an important date for another reason.

This is the day that my mom and dad got married.  So at least I can say that they were not on the grassy knoll.  Mom & Dad's anniversary this year marks 50 years.  They are both with their Savior today and have been for about 9 years now.  I had the opportunity to give testimony about them in my class last week.  Their lives as individual and a couple didn't follow what we might call a "typical" story.

But even with many trials and difficulties, I saw God do great things in their lives, particularly over their last few years together on earth.  I particular remember how God changed my dad's life, transforming him from an alcoholic who was very self-centered, to a man who loved Jesus passionately.  Dad loved to talk about heaven all the time.  I remember going through his office after he died and finding so many examples of Scripture and quotes focused on heaven.  God also transformed my dad into one of the best caregivers I've ever seen.  When my mom found out she had cancer, Dad stepped up in a great way to take care of her.  It was a very difficult time, but God showed grace through him to my mom.  My dad's testimony is proof that God is definitely in the life change business.

I told my students that while I didn't want to be like my dad before this transformation took place, I definitely wanted to be like him after it did.  My mom also showed great courage and a love for God, even while battling cancer, that I desire in my life as well.  My parents didn't show me what a perfect marriage is like.  But they did show me how God can transform a couple and a marriage and make it something that is a sweet fragrance to Him.  They showed me two people who, often when arriving at the end of themselves, could turn everything over to God and see Him restore what they couldn't.

I find myself missing my parents a lot at this time of year, from Thanksgiving through Christmas.  But this year has been amplified, probably because it's the 50th anniversary of their marriage.  But even still, I praise the Lord for what He has done, both in them and in me.  I pray that He will keep transforming me into the image of Christ as He desires.  That my personal walk with Him will grow every day, and that my marriage will be pleasing to Him.

Mr. B.

Friday, November 15, 2013

Questions You Should Not Ask


They say there's no such thing as a dumb question, right?  Well, maybe there aren't any dumb questions, but for my middle school students, there sure are some questions you probably shouldn't ask.  At least not ask your teacher anyway.

A few weeks ago, after hearing a few of these types of questions repeatedly one day, I decided to create this list.  Now, just so you know, I didn't do this alone.  In fact, I asked my homeroom students to help me.  In fact, they generated almost all of these questions without my assistance.  So the funny thing is....they already know these are questions they probably shouldn't ask their teachers.  Talk about irony....

The big idea with these questions is that they reveal the fact that the students who ask them either didn't study for the test or were not paying attention the first time.  Or they are too focused on the grade and not learning the concepts.  Or just not listening.....

So here's the list.  Enjoy.  I laugh out loud every time I read it.

Mr. B.


Questions You Probably Shouldn’t Ask Your Teacher

1. Is this going to be on the quiz?

2. Are you taking this for a grade?

3. Is this for completion or accuracy?

4. When are we ever going to use this in life?

5. I don’t get it. (By the way, that’s not even a question).

6. Do we have to write this down?

7. Is this on our homework?

8. Can I just ……?

9. Do we need our calculators (markers, erasers, red pens, pencils, books, etc.) today?

10. What page are we on?

11. Do I write this in pen or pencil?

12. Can we start on homework?

13. Can we leave class a minute early?

14. I didn’t know…..

15. Is it ok if I do that a different way?

16. Do we have a quiz today?

17. Do we have to do the homework?

18. I just forgot my question.

19. No wait, how did you do that?

20. Can you repeat that?

21. What number was that?

22. Have you graded my test?

Sunday, September 8, 2013

Lord, I Need You

Great song from Matt Maher.  Feeling it a little more today than normal.  The enemy is trying to keep me down.  Just shows how much I need God.


Lord, I come, I confess
Bowing here I find my rest
Without You I fall apart
You're the One that guides my heart

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Where sin runs deep Your grace is more
Where grace is found is where You are
And where You are, Lord, I am free
Holiness is Christ in me

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

Teach my song to rise to You
When temptation comes my way
And when I cannot stand I'll fall on You
Jesus, You're my hope and stay

Lord, I need You, oh, I need You
Every hour I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You

You're my one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You
My one defense, my righteousness
Oh God, how I need You


Pastor Randy

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Back to School

Well, another summer is done for me.  I go back to school tomorrow for teacher in-service training.  Then, one week later, the students arrive.  While I am always sad that summer vacation has to end, I also enter this new school year with great anticipation of God doing a great work.

As I mentioned in my last blog post, every member of my family is undergoing some sort of transition or change this year.  Mine is moving back to 8th grade and becoming a department head.  As I've been working through some pre-planning, I believe God is already working on me first even before the students arrive at school.  I'm excited about what He's showing me.  There's still much to do, but I'm trusting Him to do something beyond my imagination this year.

This year I will have the pleasure of teaching most of the same students I taught last year.  I'm sure some of them aren't completely happy about that fact.  But I hope to lead them well in learning about Algebra and the God who made it.  I will miss working with the 7th grade team this year, but I'm also excited about working with the 8th grade team.  I am very thankful to be able to work in the ministry of NRCA.

The message today at Summit Church was awesome, as usual.  Some of the notes I took certainly apply to how I want to approach this year.  They include the following:

- Desire to live a life that matters for eternity.
- We can't make God move in our lives, but we can make room for Him to move.
- The best I can offer God in my own strength is a filthy rag.
- We cannot manipulate God, but we can trust Him.
- Grab hold of Jesus and don't let Him go.

That last one is good...grab hold of Jesus and don't let Him go.  The only way I see that God can do something beyond my imagination is if I let go and get out of the way.  I desire to let go of my plans, my desires, my will, and grab hold of what He has for me.  And not let go.  I pray that will be my focus for this school year.  I need to get out of the way.  He is more than able to make this a great year, for me and my students.  Grab hold of Him and don't let go.

Mr. B.

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Transitions & A God Who Is Bigger

It's 5:45am on a Thursday morning, and I'm up earlier than usual at my computer.  You may say that's not really that early to be up on a Thursday, but remember, I'm on summer vacation.  Somehow I think I'm violating some unwritten teacher rule about being up before sunrise during the summer.

I couldn't sleep well last night for a variety of reasons.  Megan had to avoid a potential accident on Capital Blvd on her way home from rehearsal last night.  Some crazy guy driving south in a north-bound lane.  God was protecting her and helped her avoid what could have been a bad accident.  There are some other things on my mind right now, and I guess all that stress led me to talk in my sleep last night.  I dreamed that someone was trying to press in the walls of our bedroom, and I had to do something about it.  If you want to hear more stories about my talking (and the ocassional walking) in my sleep, see Felicia for more details.

As I sit here early this morning and reflect on all this, I realized (not for the first time) that our family is in the midst of a year of transitions.  All six of us are either in the middle of a transition or about to go through one in the next month or so.  For our family, 2013 will always be remembered for the transitions we endured.  I pray it will also be known for the work of God in our lives.  Here are some of the transitions I'm talking about:

Felicia - she started a new job in a new division in state gov't in January.  While she's getting integrated well after seven months, she's still learning and getting up to speed.  She's also experiencing a transition with a new writing project that was published just recently.

Megan - she graduated from NC State in May and is looking for full-time employment.  Megan has to make a tough transition - she's no longer a student for the first time in her life.  Being an adult takes on a lot of new meaning when you leave college.

Kelsey - she starts her sophomore year in college this Fall, but at a new school.  She has transferred to the College at Southeastern, leaving UNC-CH behind.  I'd say that's a pretty big transition, going from Carolina to Southeastern.  But God is able.

Daniel - he starts high school this Fall at NRCA.  I see God doing so much in his life.  This will be a big year for Daniel, a lot different than middle school.

Matt - he starts middle school this Fall at NRCA.  One of the biggest transitions a student makes is going from elementary to middle school.  Matt has his work cut out for him this year.

And then there's me, too.  So many transitions for me this year.  It started with a move out of a church ministry position, and I continue to wait on the Lord for that.  I also will be moving to teach Algebra I in 8th grade at NRCA, while also transitioning to some new roles on the middle school team.  Our entire family is also transitioning to a new church, which brings additional things to think about and decisions to make.

Wow!  That's a lot of transitions.  And how funny that all of us are going through our own individually and a few more as a family.  But as I reflect on all this again this morning, I'm also reminded how big my God is.  Scripture is filled with encouragement that God is not surprised by our circumstances.  It tells us that nothing is too difficult for God.  He is able and already working in today's circumstances, with a perfect view of what tomorrow will bring.  The Bible tells us that God always keeps His promises.  What an awesome comfort that is!

I may not know what tomorrow holds.  I may not understand why God allows things to happen the way He does.  I may not know how today's circumstances will work out.  But I trust in a God who knows me better than I know myself.  He is able.  The words of the song by that name always comfort and assure me:

He is able, more than able, to accomplish what concerns me today
He is able, more than able, to handle anything that comes my way
He is able, more than able, to do much more than I could ever dream
He is able, more than able, to make me what He wants me to be

When I reflect on those lyrics, I'm also reminded of the passage from Ephesians 3:20-21:

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever.  Amen.

Pastor Randy

Sunday, June 9, 2013

Ministry Update

Thanks to all of you who have been praying for my family and me.  We appreciate you and your prayers more than I can say.  It's been a while since my last post, so I thought I'd give a brief update on where we are right now.  I continue to desire your prayers as I seek to know God's plan for us.

As you may know, we left Wakefield Baptist Church at the end of February.  We continue to miss seeing and worshipping with our Wakefield family.  Shortly after leaving Wakefield, the Lord brought several ministry opportunities to me for consideration.  I began discussions and some interviews with a few churches in the area for ministries with music and students.  All of these ministries were bi-vocational, similar to the ones I have been serving in for about 15 years.  As I prayed and considered each opportunity, God drew me closer to Himself through the process.  But in His wisdom, none of the opportunities were the right place of service for me.  I am thankful for His work in me through this process.  I continue to wait on Him to lead in placing me in the ministry He desires.

At the same time, God has been working in other ways that are exciting.  My commitment to North Raleigh Christian Academy is unchanged.  I continue to see God working there, and He has blessed me richly in this ministry.  God has opened up some new opportunities for me at NRCA this fall.  I will be teaching Algebra I in 8th grade this year.  While I'm sad to be leaving the 7th grade team, I'm also looking forward to moving into a new challenge.  And I get to teach the same students again as last year.  This is a great chance to continue to reinforce God's truth to them and develop even closer relationships with them.  In addition, I will be serving as the math department head and 8th grade-level lead this fall.  I accepted these roles with great humility, knowing that I will be relying on the teams I work closely with for our mutual success for God's glory.  I praise God for allowing me to step into these new roles.  I pray I lead in them for Him alone.

While we wait to see how God works in church ministry, our family has been visiting The Summit Church.  We have been visiting often since we left Wakefield.  We love it there and are seriously considering joining the church soon.  God has used this time to refresh us and give us great instruction from His Word.  Plus, we have been able to attend Summit as a family, especially while the girls are home for the summer.

In addition, our family continues to grow in the Lord and in the changes He's bringing our way.  Not only with ministry for me.  Felicia is enjoying her job at DHHS and just returned recently from the writer's conference.  She is excited about how God is using her writing.  Megan has graduated from NC State and is enjoying her new jobs.  Kelsey also has two jobs this summer to earn college money, which will be spent at the College at Southeastern this fall.  Daniel is about to enter high school, which he is very excited about.  Matt is entering middle school this year, and he gets an extra year before getting me as his math teacher.  I am blessed beyond imagination by my family.  God is working in great ways.

I am both blessed and challenged as I look to the future.  Blessed by the many ways God is working and providing for me and my family.  Blessed by the new opportunities He is bringing my way.  Challenged as I wait to see what His plan is in ministry.  But God is good in all things.  I know His way is always best.  Thanks again for your continued prayers for our family.

Pastor Randy

Sunday, April 21, 2013

Real or Fake?

I love the fact that I get to serve at a Christian school.  Not only do I get to teach math, but more importantly I get to weave Scripture into everything I do in class.  This past week was no exception.

I read part of Ephesians 4 in class, specifically highlighting vv. 11-15.  In the context, Paul reminds us that we are taught the Word of God for several reasons:  the equipping of the saints, the work of the ministry, the edifying of the body of Christ, the unity of the faith, the knowledge of Jesus, the growth to a perfect man in the fullness of Christ, and more.  I focused on v. 14, which tells us we grow in the Word so we will not remain as children, tossed about by false doctrine and the tricks of men.  Rather, because of the Word, we are able to speak the truth in love and grow up in all things in Christ.

I shared with my students that the only way they can trust what they are hearing is to filter it through the Bible.  I gave several examples of this, including the movie "Catch Me If You Can".  The story is about Frank Abignale, Jr., a true story about a man who made counterfeit checks and stole money from several companies.  He was eventually arrested and served time in prison.  However when he had served his time, he was hired by the FBI to help with identifying conterfeit checks.  In fact, he was so good at his job that someone asked him about it, wondering how he got so good at spotting fake checks.  Frank's response was that he had studied real checks so much that it was easy to spot the fake ones.

My message to my students was simple:  you'll only know truth if you've studied the only truth so well that you can easily spot something that's fake.  There are too many things in this world that sound almost like biblical truth, but they fall short in some way.  Some fall short in a big way, usually in terms of their view of Jesus Christ.  The only way you can know for sure is to line it up against God's Word.  If it fails the comparison test, then it's a fake.

I saw this revealed again this morning.  I've been able occasionally to watch some preaching on TV on Sunday mornings before church.  Today, I watched two TV preachers.  One was Dr. David Jeremiah, and I can tell you I trust his teaching.  He did an awesome job today with Philippians 2.  Then I watched another TV preacher, who's name I will not use, but he is a very popular preacher of a very large church.  The second preacher largely encouraged his congregation in the complete opposite direction of what I believe the Bible teaches about serving one another and relationships.  The first guy preached on how Jesus was the ultimate example of a servant, coming to earth as the God man.  The second guy preached on how we should cut off those people who drain us and we should focus on our own destiny, using no Scripture to back up his words.

God does not want us to be confused.  That's one reason we have the Bible.  It's our textbook for life.  But more than that, it is truth.  I encourage you to apply Frank Abignale, Jr.'s idea to the Christian realm.  Know the Word of God so well that you can easily spot what is fake.  Let the Holy Spirit affirm it in your heart and give you the power to live it in your life.

Pastor Randy

Monday, March 11, 2013

ACC Basketball Tourney Picks

Ok, here you go.  My ACC Tournament picks for this year.  Enjoy.


Thursday's Games:

GA Tech over Boston College
NCSU over VA Tech
Wake Forest over Maryland
Florida State over Clemson (sorry Mrs. Lilly)

Friday's Games (assumes my picks win on Thursday):

Miami over GA Tech
NCSU over Virginia
Duke over Wake Forest
UNC over Florida State

Saturday's Games (assumes my picks win on Friday):

NCSU over Miami
UNC over Duke

Sunday's Game (assumes my picks win on Saturday):

NCSU over UNC

Yes, I know I'm an NC State fan.  If I set that aside for a moment, my second choice would be UNC.  Not because I like them that much, but if it turns out to be Duke vs. UNC on Saturday, I think UNC wins the game.  They have a lot to make up for after the last game between these two teams.

Just my opinion.  That and a dollar will buy you a Snickers bar at the grocery store.

Friday, February 1, 2013

God is Sovereign


Sovereign in the mountain air
Sovereign on the ocean floor
With me in the calm
With me in the storm
Sovereign in my greatest joy
Sovereign in my deepest cry
With me in the dark
With me at the dawn
In Your everlasting arms
All the pieces of my life
From beginning to the end I can trust You
In Your never-failing love
You work everything for good
God whatever comes my way I will trust You
All my hopes all I need
Held in Your hands
All my life all of me
Held in Your hands
All my fears all my dreams
Held in Your hands

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